spotify is open in the background with the no love deep web cover sticking out in the corner of my screen, just a pixelated dick hangin out in the lower left
also are there any themes for tumblr that aren’t terrible and Web Design and preferably are fake, and also gay
fyi if anyone has noticed me liking/unliking/reliking things or unfollowing/refollowing i don’t mean it i have a jacked up mouse and mobile tumblr sucks
here’s what i think about political transness: the idea that transness can only be an innate and inherent identity, that there’s no other way to be trans, that it’s not a thing you can simply want for yourself, is an attempt to limit the number of people who get into it, to reduce the amount of threat transness poses to society, and to split apart people who want to transition or want to do trans shit for different reasons, in different ways. it’s a way of dividing and ruling. it doesn’t make society any friendlier to trans people who do have innate things that drive them towards transition, it just makes them easier to chew up and swallow.
i don’t have an identity at all. i don’t even know what having an identity would mean. when i go out people scrutinize my face and my chest with prying eyes. when i talk people think of my voice as fake or weird. when i bind my body language betrays that i’m bundled up like a sausage in a loop of gut, my kidneys itching all the while. when i kiss girls people think i’m an obnoxious queer. when people treat me the way they treat women it disgusts a thing deep in me, and it disgusts a thing deep in me more to imagine passing it along to others. i don’t know what having an identity would change about these things.
i don’t know if anyone has the identity that cis people want to talk about trans people having. it’s certainly not me and i don’t think it’s being taken away by people doing shit that makes me less small and alone.
what i think about political transness is that it’s not to my advantage to be alone, and there’s a reason all the cis people in my life seem to think it is
also i have never wanted to reblog a text post as a link. i could see how it would be useful but there’s no way that should be the default. reblogging as link is like heterosexuality
@ erzsi sorry my internet cut out and i lost your reply but uh
a better way of expressing what i mean might be “i used to be cis and straight and if someone had told me earlier that it was okay to abandon these things just because the alternatives were good and right and i wanted that for myself instead of based on whether i was Really Truly Born To Be Queer i would have stripped away a lot of bad shit about myself a lot sooner”
i guess i think that the pressure NOT to be queer is enough that i can’t really… imagine people undertaking being queer in bad faith, or at least not more than someone who was Born That Way
another “fuck mobile tumblr” thing is when you tap at the top of the screen to go to the top of someone’s blog and unfollow them. Rad. Cool